Go Toros!

We went to our first Austin TOros game tonight at the Cedar Park Center. It was so much fun! We were lucky to get some nice seats because I have been to the CPC before when we were lower and you are sorta shoulder to shoulder and knee to knee. They didnt play that well but it didnt matter cause we were out having fun! THanks to my inlaws for watching Hannah :) SHe had a good time too :)

Down day

Finally we had a "quiet day" however as any mom knows, it was less than quiet. The good news is the last 2 nights Hannah slept from 12-6 (approx.) so I am feeling better than I have in a while. She is napping more normally and feeling good. She is eating a lot more than she was a few weeks ago. At each meal she has 4 oz. of formula with cereal and one container of baby food. (three times a day!) and nursing before after and sometimes during :) and for snacks. She is waving a lot and I am trying to catch it on video.
Alexandra coughed yesterday and so I took her to the doctor and she took some steroids and is going to be taking antibiotics. THis may seem like an overreaction but the last time I overlooked a cough we ended up in the ER. Our pediatrician said he thought it was good we came in. So she is feeling fine and enjoying having daddy home today. I feel that we avoided the ER last night so I am grateful our doctor gave us the prescription we needed.
Also, we just got an invitation to our 10 year high school reunion. Yes, you read that right, TEN! I can hardly believe it. It will be held on a Saturday night in July at Iron cactus. Sounds like a lot of fun, however I was kind of hoping to show off my children. I guess Ill just have to bring pics! I wonder what it will be like but I think it will be nice to see all the familiar faces and see some old friends. Since my class was 700 I don;t know how we will fit at a restaurant but I suppose not many will come. Many of the names I saw on facebook who are coming, I didn't recognize at all. Maybe we can make some new friends too.
Coming up on the new year, makes me think so much about life, and what we want to get out of it. In the next few days I hope I can come up with some ways to slow down and enjoy these fleeting moments of parenthood and my twenties!

Cousins Visit Leander

Well these are my cousins. Yesterday my dad's brother and sister and 2 of their children (and one grandchild) came over to visit. Sadie and Alexandra were born just a few weeks apart :) Our July babies are babies no more! We had a great time catching up then playing at Main event. I am so glad we got a chance to hang out with them. I was glad to get a chance to share my Samantha scrapbook with them, because I haven't seen them since the babies were born and Samantha passed away.
Cousins are such a special relationship. As children we used to play and now as adults our children can play. Very cool.

Holiday Report

Well this was actually one of the best Christmases I have ever had. Thanks to family and my little girls. We got to spend Christmas at home, which was wonderful, and also David's grandparents were here to celebrate the holidays. What a blessing that they were willing to come all the way from Tuscon.

It was fun to see Alexandra open her gifts like her toy cat and her Hungy Hungry Hippos game. She has been playing with her Rupunzel doll
and dressing her Lucy doll in her new clothes. She loves to play with her fun factory and snuggle in her new Snuggli. She sings into her new boom box singing Twinkle Twinkle and If your happy and you know it. And Hannah is busy too! You should see her following Alexandra around :) As well as playing with her monkey ball and her Ball Popper.

Today I have to admit I am really feeling the loss of Samantha. I think the excitement of the holidays is waning and bringing me back to the reality that she is gone. We tried to honor her by lighting a candle and displaying some lillies

I am so grateful to have my little survivor. But I wish my Samantha was here too.

Merry and Sorrowful Christmas

Merry Christmas! As with every day, I am so grateful to look at my two beautiful angels and I can't wait to see them open gifts in the morning. It has truly been a wonderful Christmas Eve, with David's parents, grandparents, brother and girlfriend, sister, and aunt. I absolutely LOVE Christmas at my house. It has that feeling of the house being full of love. And yet in the midst of my joy, I still long for Samantha's tiny hand grasping my finger. I imagine two babies crawling around or David and I each with a baby in our arms. I am so glad that Jesus was born so that Samantha could be in heaven with God. But I still wish she was here with me.
Last year I had two tiny stockings. I haven't gotten one for Hannah yet, because I just can't bear to do one more thing without Samantha too. I can't believe it still. BUt I will light her candle tomorrow, perhaps visit the cemetery. Look at her scrapbook and remember the wonderful days I had with her. I miss her so much.
So tomorrow, I will joyfully celebrate Hannah's first Christmas and mourn Samantha's first Christmas which she is spending with Jesus. I thought this was beautiful.
http://merrychristmasfromheaven.com/

Two Cuties

I had to share two stories I have been telling everyone I can get to listen :)
yesterday at bedtime Hannah was playing behind the door and peeking out. Soon the grin on her face made it clear that she was playing peekaboo!!! It was sooo cute:) So we said "Where's Hannah? Where's Hannah" and she would hide. Then she would smile at us and we would say Peekaboo! Oh it was wonderful.
Then this morning Alexandra saw a picture of David and I on the beach and asked about it. I told her it was a picture of when Daddy visited Mommy in Miami. She said "Next time can I come?" I said, "Sure baby, I would love to take you to Miami." Then she said, "Mommy, what's your Ami'?" I said " No, Miami," She said "Your-ami." Later David said, he wanted to take her to Miami, but Alexandra corrected him. It's Mommy's Ami.
Oh, man. So adorable.