I saw these sleepers and it really expressed how I feel all day every day. This empty sleeper and the hole in my heart. I see the space where Samantha should be. I sold the stroller, returned her clothes, returned the second car seat and I'm working on getting rid of the crib. But that hole is still there aching like crazy. I started crying when I saw Haloween costumes. I'm not sure I can handle the holidays this year. I feel like our Christmas card should be something like this picture. Sweet baby Hannah and an emtpy space where my sweet baby Samantha should be. I still can't believe I have to live the rest of my life without her. I can hardly bear the pain. My girls help me with the joy they inspire. I just have to adjust to my new normal.
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I wish there was a salve. Something that didn't make you forget but brought the vivid memories and eased some of the pain. Soon that hard feeling of sorrow, longing, and want will become like a diamond, hard but precious, cold but beautiful, and most of all absolutely singular and unique. I hope your life is filled with the moments that make that diamond glow warm with love.
It was good to hear from you, but I am so sorry. Please know I think of you often and am wishing you healing thoughts. There are just no words... sending you comfort. :(
Love you girl, Abby
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